I have to confess that I'm a very inactive blogger, it's been 4 months since my last blog.  Tonight, when my wife and son are both asleep, I'm writing down my recent feeling impulsively.

 

My son Lotto keeps speaking in his own language that we don't understand, but we do understand his joy of having made every growing progress.  He bends and stretches his fingers several times to say "good-bye", he squats and stands up promptly then laughs at us, he holds the mirror and speaks to his reflection, he smiles when I lift him up and immediately cries as soon as I put him down...  We feel very worried when he is ill.  He seems to hear us but we can't fully hear him.  Sometimes I felt guilty after blaming him for not eating at the meal time, the fountain from his eyes seems to claim it unfair because the rice didn't taste right or he was not feeling comfortable.

 

I didn't realize how lucky I am until I saw other babies, I didn't realize how well he behaves until he played with other kids, I couldn't tell how reluctant to see him off until we had to send him to his grandma's home.  Nevertheless, I appreciate all these subtle changes that I feel in my heart after being a father.  Most of my fears were overcome and I'm confident to make it better for Lotto and my wife in the future days to come!

 

I am gonna make him happy and I know he is gonna make us proud someday!